
Strawberry - resting between injuries
I spent this evening at an emergency veterinary hospital, after our seven-month-old accident-prone rescued kitten, Strawberry, broke her face. (Read more about Strawberry’s history on LiveJournal or on Strawberry’s own page.)
My biggest fear for Strawberry has been that her vision and balance problems could cause her to injure herself. Although she fell off shelves and dressers often, she never seemed discouraged. She just kept on exploring, jumping, and playing…and falling. I’ve tried to figure out how to keep her from injuring herself, but locking her inside a padded room seemed unfair. Now I wish I had.
A “thud” caught my attention tonight, and I was alarmed to find poor Strawberry flailing on the living room floor next to the TV. She had slipped off a high ledge, her favorite perch lately, and apparently slammed her face against the edge of the TV stand on her way down. Her head cocked to one side, she was coughing up blood and gagging, making the most horrible noises I’ve ever heard. I wrapped her in a blanket and rushed her to the emergency vet (as is typical of emergencies, this happened after-hours, on a Friday evening).
At that point, I thought she would not survive, but wanted to ensure that her suffering would end as soon as possible, and humanely. She barely moved when I gently settled her inside the cat carrier. She curled up inside her blanket and continued to gurgle and wheeze. While I drove across town, I internally yelled at myself for not doing more to keep her away from high places. I was wracked with guilt, praying for a miracle. When I reached the emergency veterinary office, Strawberry had managed to sit up and was looking around her. Her little face was swollen, blood ran from her nose, and she was still wheezing, but I had a bit of hope. I had called the vet office ahead to let them know we were coming, so a tech met me at the door and whisked the kitten into the back room.
Strawberry will be staying in the hospital this weekend, but she is still alive and prognosis looks better right now. She was given pain medicine, sedated, and x-rayed. She fractured bones throughout her face and jaw. My heart aches for her. And also for us, now that we’re facing yet another ginormous vet bill.
I had to make a decision when I was asked how much I wanted them to do to save her. I said that if her injuries are fixable, we’ll find a way to come up with the money. When I talked to my partner, Kari, she was even more insistent that we treat this injury as if she were a person, not “just an animal.” (So at least I’m not the only crazy person in this family.)
We have made torturous end-of-life decisions with sick pets before, and there is a point when you know that to press on is futile and/or cruel. But Strawberry does not have a terminal illness. Her body is not shutting down, bones can mend, and she’s a fighter. I don’t know how to set a price limit on her life when she is trying so hard to live.
(Donation button because people have asked. Thank you SO much.)